Wednesday, January 12, 2022

doubts and claims abt my profession

Today I read this article and this article on Painscience.com

I found this guy in 2018 while looking for relief from plantar fasciitis, shin splits, and quad tendinopathy accrued while pretending to train like an olympian. He recommended self massage, stretching, hydro, etc., while admitting that these are often nebulous, tricky, and persistent problems. That was part of how I caught my massage bug. 

This article is critical, but I don't think it's unfair, either, it's just a more scientific/traditional approach than is taught in massage therapy school. In general, I don't like to pin myself down to any particular framework, especially a purely rational/scientific one, but I think it's worthwhile to sit with these views. In the same way, I don't think a lot of people at our school would appreciate an article like this, and while I have enough bad experience with the medical industrial complex to also share dissident views, I don't think it's sufficient to say "doctors bad, massage therapy FTW" either--that's just playing musical chairs between superiority-inferiority complexes. 

The middle way of Buddhism describes "freedom from extreme views", i.e. nihilism vs eternalism,  but I also think it applies to real world viewpoints (this is in my understanding the basis of approaches like integral theory). It's hard to not get defensive or panic while reading these articles. We have such an innate desire for certainty; we want to immediately register new information as either true or false. 

This article mostly make me want to be a more precise practitioner, perhaps informing how I study and practice down the road. It makes me want to start slow and simple and first provide really good, relaxing massage before getting ahead of myself. Also, the author notes that the CMTO curriculum is one of the world's best ;) 

I don't think that the absence of current evidence towards certain techniques or approaches means they are devoid of value (especially emotional value, which the author clearly supports, and which is obviously less quantifiable than other outcomes). The author is also pretty open about why and how it's hard to get accurate data on this stuff, that good research is (hardly) emerging. 

I don't think this article frames the ultimate perspective for me, and I don't think it has to be in contradiction to everything we learn in school, though it makes me desire more care and clarity around what I'm learning and practicing. 

The results on anxiety and depression are very encouraging. If anything, much of the article and especially the final section are huge vouchers for what brought me here in the first place: emotional/psychological benefits, and even "rais[ing] self-awareness":

It would be silly for me to claim that I know what “psychologically profound” actually means (in reference to anything, not just massage). But I do think that a lot of fresh, novel sensory stimulation can quite literally raise self-awareness. Receiving massage is kind of like a guided meditation that brings your attention not only to many specific parts of your body. Noticing that you feel vulnerable here but robust and comfortable there can be subjectively valuable information, new self knowledge.

This article mostly makes me curious and want to participate (treat, teach, maybe even research) in a future where treatment is better understood and (hopefully, as a consequence) treatment is better (and more accessible), while also deepening a connection with the spiritual dimensions of practice. 

biological realism(TM) (phd thesis topic)

 is the correlation postulated by someone's phenomenological account of their experience with what is ostensibly happening inside their bodies


e.g. 


damn i can really feel the (serotonin/lactic acid/dopamine/root chakra) pumping 


a necessary consequence of speaking 

it is most pernicious in health, nutrition, fitness, etc.  

and at the heart of 

how do we know anything is happening at all

and how can we tell others


a sub-category of Pareidolia

Sunday, December 19, 2021

dec 19 2021

 5am 

nespresso costa rice espresso coffee 

dr nida chenangtsang 

nespresso double espresso coffee 

circuit: 

lunge 10 ea leg 

squat 10 

pushup 10 

alternating hitting one shoulder with the other palm 10 

(repeat 3x; last set 22 pushups) 


8:30am

dad makes aeropress 


9:30am

mom's leftover swiss chalet chicken fried with cumin salt pepper worschestishire sauce swiss chalet sauce vinegar cranberries 


11am 

caesar with vodka clamato rimmer worschestishire pickle juice celery lime and ice 

2x:chemex coffee with maple liquor, molasses beans, tofu scramble, scrambled eggs, breakfast sausage, bacon, strawberry orange canteloupe, ~5 hashbrowns  

3/4 sticky bun


8:30PM 

~5 min practicing frog pose

~2 min bridge pose 

~5 min gh hyperextension stretch in squat -- noticed that can place left hand over right, increased retraction and lateral distraction of coracoid attachments, felt pressure/release in forearm from elbow to wrist, resisted pronation from maximum supination, make sure to flex the bicep/elbow while sinking into squat   




Thursday, April 18, 2019

you are my Daniyar Ismayilov's bomb out in the 2019 European Cup

You are the missed opportunity for the 2020 olympics

you are a brilliant technical start in the first event, the snatch
you are three missed attempts in the second event, the clean and jerk

i brought you to my shoulders
but you would not be put overhead

revealing my gross imbalances
you are my failure to total

you are a bad past that would have cropped up somehow, at some point, anyways
you were involved in car accidents
(although you didn't cause them, thank you for being there for me)

2016 doesn't matter
Rio doesn't matter
Silver doesn't fucking matter

2020 doesn't matter, now
Where will Daniyar go
1992, so 31 by the 2024 Olympics
if it's still an olympic event then
if it still matters, then

"Everything is temporary"