oct 3

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snatch + snatch pull

Felt weak/body not solid off floor, decomposed

top of pull feels or at least looks awkward
at least im trying to fix looking downward on pulls

i noticed that the rashes im getting on my thighs can be reduced by being more patient and saving acceleration for the power position

still i feel like im getting disconnected from the bar after extension and not smoothly transitioning into the squat, the bar is crashing on me, im landing in the bottom rather than receiving it and riding it down

i got to the gym last night at 9 and therefore felt that taking time to perfect technique was at odds with completing the prescribed sets

70x[(1+1)x2]x2

75x[(1+1)x2]

80x[(1+1)]x2
This led to a min breakdown/existential crisis as the bar and the reps felt challenging or uncomfortable and I thought about what I really wanted from this. I don't know why I've always felt like I have to hold back from really wanting this - maybe it's a guilt related to consumption or egotism - and it presented itself late last night. I can't tell if my body is trying to tell me that what I'm doing is wrong, or if this is just the discomfort zone, where I need to be working to make growth, and that it might even be fear or excuses that are holding me back. Maybe fears of being a meathead or being a disgusting consumptive north american are also fears of going for something that I really want.Night time silence is good for unlocking the emotional instability powers.

After processing this a bit and sitting in the lovely nasty FPP chair, which reminds me nicely of insanely tired nights in the MC comfy lounge, I was able to feel motivated and more aggressive and even happy and hyped when I made lifts, even though they weren't perfect. While I know the traditional approach demands more discipline, that technique is perfect before weights are added, this seems like maybe a good development from the emotional side of lifting. Steve told me awhile ago that I can't forget I'm picking stuff off the ground and lifting it up, I have to remember I'm lifting weights, even if it might make my technique worse, and I think this relates to that. It should be elegant and aesthetic but it cant be cerebral or removed from the pump....


I noticed that automatically went to doing no feet again on the snatch, and that this narrow stance put a lot of pressure on my calf. When I did power jerks on Sunday, the split was too wide, so I need to find a balance here. 

Dunno why my overhead was uneven/awkward, maybe not used to a slightly wider grip

Hang Clean + Jerk

90kg x 1+3, (1+2)x2
95x1x2

worked on the dick hitting problem by setting my back/core properly, and also not extending too early.

i have a habit of leaning back in the hang clean that needs to be better attended to.

need to get under jerk better - when it feels hard i start to push away in front instead of under

thought my foot positioning was improving but i'm still peg-legging it

Snatch Pull
60x3x3
80x3x3

needs to be more decisive, i get tired and confused and start doing speed pulls
need to go for the full arc


Push Press
60x4
80x3
60x

Back XT
bar x 10 + hold x3