weds, nov 30

what's my vert jump? from feigenbaum, on his crossfit xp:

 Most guys are going to test around 22″ with women being lower, about 14″. Now, say you have a guy coming to CrossFit with a 40″ vertical jump. Whoa ATHLETE alert, right? But not so fast…..being really explosive can be advantageous in sports when the effort is brief, i.e. a running back or wide receiver, but this actually can be a disadvantage when the efforts get longer, as the athlete who is genetically wired up to be very explosive will get fatigued too quickly. Basically, if you have a neuromuscular-derived advantage in creating a lot force quickly, i.e. you’re very explosive, that same neuromuscular system betrays you when you need to produce sub-maximal amounts of force over a long period of time. There’s no such thing as a biological free lunch here, folks.

always wonder where i fit in wrt that curve
wrt lifting it seems i have some gifts i.e. legs
throughout childhood was not considered athletic or anything
dad
flat feet

i want to be a chinese snatch 

daily there is a stupid cluttering of voices in my head about values and how important this shit is / should be to me 

i love the way this feels, to what extent am I allowed to engage in this practice 

because it seems that doing this is always pulling away from something else

in some cases that is true and important, like if i'm behind on deadlines 

or if i haven't hung out with friends and family 

and just want to lift

maybe that isn't productive

but but but but 

what about the rest of the time 

part of this "anxious dialectic" (thanks, @ft) relates to consumption, image, ego, etc. 

the building up of such a fragile statue 

the notion that it reveals or builds character seems funny to me in some ways 

because like 

to me it doesn't build character

lol

i lost my train of thought 

because i had a long crap unproductive day 

and im exhausted